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woah [27 Dec 2003|08:50pm]
[ mood | good ]

woah i havent written anything on here for soooo long even though I still come on and read peoples journals
well im still alive and stupidly busy at uni though im home for the christmas hols. i love uni. but im liking being home and chiling out though i reckon its more stressful being at home cos my mums being really picky and grouchy, still i like it cos its familiar and everything!
been doing quite a bit of running but its still not enough - got county champs next weekend and im gettin rather nervous, i wanna win!!
i miss all my uni ppl but when i go back im gonna have to make a real effort to get to know all my house ppl really well and not just all the random cool ppl ive already gelled with.
hmm. boredom, wish i didnt live in the middle of nowhere so that i could go out tonight with everyone! goddamn! oh well, guess i should do some work for my course or something. read a few books, ahhhh the good life.
maybe ill start posting entries all the time now, but no more of that whiny teenage crap. i cant be arsed with feelings. or people. people suck. but life rocks.

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Aren't you terrified of waking up too tired to try again? [28 Sep 2003|12:44am]
IM OFF TO UNI TODAY!!
OH MY GOD!!
BEEN SO BUSY I HAVENT UPDATED FOR AGES SO IM MAKING UP FOR IT BY TYPING IN CAPITALS!!
HEEHEE!!
SO TERRIFIED!!
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woohoo im alyson hannigan [20 Sep 2003|11:34pm]
<td bgcolor="#000000">Who will play you:</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA">Alyson Hannigan </td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Who will play your love interest:</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA">Ashley Olsen </td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Weeks you will stay in the box office:</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA">15</td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Song that will play during your love scene:</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA">Madonna - Justify my Love </td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Song that will play during your death:</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA">Emiliana Torrini - If You Go Away </td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Your name:</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA"></td></tr>
Your Life: The Movie by mintyduck
Created with quill18's MemeGen!
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[08 Sep 2003|12:15am]
"Behind them lies a litany of ups and downs. This is, after all, the band that has outlasted trends, drugs, madness, seven guitarists, nervous breakdowns, £70,000 of dental surgery (Frusciante's teeth fell out from drug abuse) and one death (of founding guitarist Hillel Slovak, from heroin, in 1988). That's six deaths if you include the times Frusciante has OD-ed and technically passed away"
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Kinda cool [01 Sep 2003|01:19am]
<td bgcolor="#000000">Your Name</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA"></td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Band Name</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA">The Get Up Kids </td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Role</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA">Guitarist </td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Trademark</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA">Extreme Sassiness </td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Love Interest</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA">A Porn Star </td></tr>
Which Band Should You Be In? by couplandesque
Created with quill18's MemeGen!


so I guess that's kinda cool...not red hot chili peppers. but still ok. it changes everytime though and has absolutely no relation to what name you put in. last night i was in the stereophonics. maybe tomorrow ill be in with john and co. but it might be cheating to wait and try again!
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V set list [30 Aug 2003|10:22pm]
The Setlist
'By The Way'
'Scar Tissue'
'Around The World'
'Universally Speaking'
'Suck My Kiss'
'Parallel Universe'
'Zephyr Song'
'Throw Away Your Television'
'Otherside'
'If You Have To Ask'
'Don't Forget Me'
'Right On Time'
'Soul To Squeeze'
'Can't Stop'
'Venice Queen'
'Give It Away'
'Under The Bridge'

thats what i saw at V. apparently they had power of equality and search and destroy still to play if they hadnt got dragged off stage! damnit! and that hasnt go the john song listed. i wonder what that song was. must find out!
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Oh yeh baby [30 Aug 2003|02:01pm]
Gangsta Bitch!
You're Gangsta Bitch Barbie. You're tough and you
like it rough, and of course you like to pop a
cap in any wiggers ass.


If You Were A Barbie, Which Messed Up Version Would You Be?
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Return of happy girl! [30 Aug 2003|01:18pm]
So I finally get round to updating..oh my god it's been a long time, but I've just been sooo busy and I haven't really been on the net for a long time. I'm at Matt's house at the moment...yes that's right Matt, my new boyfriend. Hehe, cue stupid girlie grin and giggling. He's really nice, I'm feeling stupidly happy at the moment. Only problem is that this is only going to last till we go off to uni in a month. I kinda said that I wanted to be single when I went to uni and that's why originally we weren't going to go out but I'm glad we did. It's cooler than just going oh yeh...Matt...the guy I'm jsut fooling around with. He's asleep at the moment anyway so I'm just trying to kill some time online and do useful stuff as well. Found tickets for Jane's Addiction UK tour. £22.50 each or something but it's totally worth it. Wish I'd been a bigger fan when I saw them at Reading last year cos they were sooo good. Don't think I'll ever forget Perry Farrell in that hat!!
So in the last couple of weeks that I have failed to update I've been doing the following (in order of course)...
*on holiday in yorkshire in the middle of f-ing nowhere, but on the edge of some very pretty moors
*organising and planning and actually holding a party
*getting my a-level results...all A's...soooo amazed! can't believe it!
*going to V and meeting the distillers and seeing the Chillis...who were so great I cried when they played
*getting the plaster cast off my arm finally...broke the cast watching RHCP anyway
*going to Reading which was absolutely great but my arm hurt loads
*trying to sleep...which just hasn't been happenning cos it's too quiet without all the people around and all the music and noise 24 hours a day
*hannah's birthday meal...yummy yummy
*and other random every day sort of things that now include a certain matt who I'm getting on really well with at the moment!

So yeh I have no stupid cast on my arm anymore. I hate doctors though. Spent 2 hours in the Princess Royal hospital waiting for them to sort me out..all they did was hack it off and x-ray it and ask me if I could move it...the answer to this was yes but it hurts...and it still hurts a lot now, and they just told me to go home! No physio or anything and I still can't move the damn thing properly. It's really really weak and hairy and thin and generally not good so I been wearing lots and lots of wrist bands and bracelets and everything. During the ataris and alkaline trio it got really beaten up. At Reading the concrete jungle stage was tiny. It was really really really really hot under there and totally crazy of them to put such big bands on there! The ataris were amazing though. I got so close to the front for both the ataris and the alkaline trio, woo! woo!! sooo good. got drenched by everyone elses sweat though and must have lost a couple of pounds in water as well- been making up for it though since I got back, it's just sooo good to have real food again. Metallica were definatley the class act at Reading. They just didn't want to leave the stage and stayed afterwards talking for ages and throwing plecs into the crowd. And their new bassist Roberto or whatever his name is was amazing. I can't believe he's like 39, he just had this amazing energy. Been reading up about him cos I was so impressed and it turns out he used to play in Ozzy Osbourne's band! Waay cool!

And aaahhhh wowweeeee Red Hot Chili Peppers at V!!!
It wasn't their best performance ever and having seen Metallica live I can imagine what they must have been like when John first joined the band cos now they just seem like they're going through the motions. They wanted to do more of an encore and everything but they weren't allowed! It was sooo sad. John was all on stage ready to play more after Under The Bridge but they got called off! I wonder what song they were going to do next...guess we may never know! It took so much effort to get to the front but I got there. I was second row back standing on the little raised concrete bit and I had a massive smile on my face. I cried when they played Soul To Squeeze and Under the Bridge and Scartissue. Might have cried all the way through, can't really recall I was just soooo amazingly happy. And afterwards I didn't want to leave. It was like I couldn't quite believe that they'd been there right in front of me, sooo close and now they were gone!
Ahhhh I cant think of much more to say at the moment. I'm just still on this amazing high from seeing RHCP even though it was two weeks ago. I love live music so much. It just makes my soul smile...such a great feeling :)
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[06 Aug 2003|11:45pm]
This is soooo great. Somehow this has made my day.

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Fight Club!


What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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Hew this ones for you!
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warm and fuzzy [06 Aug 2003|08:11pm]
[ mood | blah ]

Just got back from seeing Legally Blonde 2 with deanie. It was great, all pink and warm and fuzzy. Not as good as the first one but a great chick flick without any of the soppy romance bits. Good-oh. We dressed in pink to celebrate the greatness of Elle Woods. It was rather alternative-style-pink, so we rocked :)
Yay!
Have just e-mailed Flare event staffing people to see if I can get a job at any of the festivals. It's such a cooool job. Deanie and Lina are working at V this year. And it just sounds soooo great!!
Tea time

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sell out!! sell out!! [06 Aug 2003|12:16am]
[ mood | curious ]

The Transplants are sellouts!!
Who would have thought it!? I'm shocked....the Fructis advert's their song.
Good tune. But still.

My mum and brother are driving me round the twist. Really. I need some space. I fucking hate holidays like this one. But this has been the shittest of all. Damn broken bones. Damnit damnit damnit.
Much as I hate being left home alone I really can't take any more of them so I'll be glad when they are away.
Today I am starting my emergency fruit diet consisting of eating only fruit so that I can sit on Matt's shoulders for the whole of the Chilis set at V
This summer fucking sucks. And for once I don't know what to do about it.
And jesus christ some dudes have got a list of people using kazaa that they wanna sue. I know some people on there! Scary stuff!
Sleep.

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Why oh why? [05 Aug 2003|07:34am]
The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Sixth Level of Hell - The City of Dis!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
LevelScore
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)Very High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Very High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Extreme
Level 7 (Violent)High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)Extreme
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)High

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test
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lalala [05 Aug 2003|01:01am]
[ mood | content ]

Slightly drunk having just returned from liz's 18th birthday party. so my spelling might deteriorate slowly. it took a lot of effort to spell that long word then. it was good. it was random but it was fun and cool and i feel happy, not sad. even when there were really romantic soppy songs on i still didn't mind. woohoo happiness rules...or vodka rules. either way im smiling...and bloody hell does my head hurt
on the up side my hair looks quite nice today, well very nice actually i'd say and i had a good time. plus my lovely size 8 monsoon £100 off dress fits wonderfully. boy do i feel good.
it was film characters and i went as domino the bond girl aka kim bassinger and stocky went as james bond. i had a water pistol instead of a real gun though...damnit! But it was still great for soaking people with..hehe..i'm evil.
Next week should actually be quite cool when my folks are away cos I've just invited everyone else round for the week...hehe :) And my party's looking good too.
Last night I had quite a revelationary thought...I just kiinda realised..fuck marc. I wouldn't go out with him again and I can't be doing with anyone whos going to read into stuff and get annoyed unnecessarily. such a waste of time. I mean nobody else would give a damn that O2 sent a text msg twice, they'd just laugh and sigh at my craziness! Ahh, so nice not to give a damn!
I read something the other day about losing respect for the other person after you sleep with them, i guess thats why love is so important in a realtionship.
I need to go dillute the blood in my alcohol now!
Spent a lot of the night singing and dancing round the fire in a contended manner. 90's indie rocks!

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have you ever had a dream.... [31 Jul 2003|09:53pm]
[ mood | confused ]

Deanie came round today and we hung out all afternoon and just chatted. Which was cool. Am going to a few gigs with her next week, should be good and we're planning on going to see Legally Blonde on cheap day! Yay! We're going to wear pink I think in honour of the blonde-ness. Dea also said she'd braid my hair for me, with beads on the ends, thats gonna be sooo great cos I really can't do much with it at the moment and it's majorly pissing me off. We had this random if you had to marry a band which band would you marry question. It's actually really really hard cos even if you'd marry Brian Molko would you marry the rest of Placebo! We never really decided but I think I might go for the Red Hot Chili Peppers. It's worth putting up with Chad for the greatness of John, and I don't think I'd kick Anthony or Flea out of bed!
Had a really weird dream, well dreams last night. Dreamt I had a party at my house, well it was a different house with really nice yellow walls and a very long sofa u and in the middle of the room and Red Hot Chili Peppers were there.
Oh dear god I've just made such a prat of myself, I'm also really really really shocked by this!

the skies bleed says: u got a girlf atm?
Da Bassist says: 3
the skies bleed says: uh..cindy, barbie and ken(etta) ?
Da Bassist says: Jen, kim and amy
Da Bassist says: amy's in london tho, damnit

the skies bleed says: jen and kim living under ur bed atm?
Da Bassist says: they live in worcester...kinda worrying that i know two ppl who live so close together
the skies bleed says: yes....it must be worrying knowing liz and sally then considering how close together they live.
the skies bleed says: so how did u meet them?
Da Bassist says: they lived in the same block at uni
the skies bleed says: ahh
the skies bleed says: how logical
Da Bassist says: indeed

So at the beginning I totally thought he was joking! But now I'm a bit worried, graham said he knew Marc has had multiple girlfriends previously and may still have. I can't believe how much this sucks. I feel like such a loser now, like he's out there getting all that sex and I haven't and I'm not! If that's true it's really scary how much he's changed in the last year. Shit. What did I do to him?!?!

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Oh yeah, baby.. [30 Jul 2003|11:59pm]
Nobody on the road
Nobody on the beach
I feel it in the air
The summer's out of reach
Empty lake, empty streets
The sun goes down alone
I'm drivin' by your house
Though I know you're not at home

But I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
You got your hair combed back and your sunglasses on, baby
And I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone

I never will forget those nights
I wonder if it was a dream
Remember how you made me crazy?
Remember how I made you scream
Now I don't understand what happened to our love
But babe, I'm gonna get you back
I'm gonna show you what I'm made of

I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
I see you walkin' real slow and you're smilin' at everyone
I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone

Out on the road today, I saw a black flag sticker on a Cadillac
A little voice Inside my head said, "Don't look back. You can never look back."
I thought I knew what love was
What did I know?
Those days are gone forever
I should just let them go but-

I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
You got that top pulled down and that radio on, baby
And I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone

I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
You got that hair slicked back and those Wayfarers on, baby
I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone


The Boys Of Summer my favourite version - The Ataris

If I was to highlight the important bits I would highlight it all. So I won't. I'll just sing it loud and let the world reflect.
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And on goes life [30 Jul 2003|08:20pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

God I make some rather overly dramatic posts. Oh well, that's just how I feel sometimes, if I can't be overdramatic with myself I'd have to take it out on everyone else! I guess everyone sometimes feels like they can't cope with everything. Me, I just feel like I'm in some sort of limbo. Waiting for stuff to happen and totally unable to make it happen. I had another day where I didn't get out og my pajamas, but I just feel so tired at the moment, and it's so hard to sleep! I've got this fucking great cast on that's a proper plaster of paris one and not my nice fibre glass one. This one hurts, itches, ways a fucking ton and causes my arm to swell up if I don't keep it elevated. It's a pain in the fucking ass I tell you. Oh yeh and bits of white stuff are coming off on everything I touch because the damn thing takes 2-3 days to dry properly! Argh! Damni! I just can't be bothered to get dressed to face ordinary everyday things. the lack of excitement in my life is driving me crazy. I can just feel it building up inside of me, like one day soon I'm gonna do something pretty crazy like just get on a train and go to london or something random and fun. I'm spending all my time with my head firmly up against a brick wall but I'm just too tired and broken to actually do anything about it. I hate feeling like this, cos when I'm not doing anything it means that I'm thinking far too much and it's bad when I think. Maybe I will just go to Manchester on a random shopping/fun filled day
Hehe, I think I will drag Laura with me :)
I love the way Tori knows me better than anyone else. She commented that I seemed as if I was being fake bubbly. Hadn't really thought about it but I guess I have been. Sad. But amazing how people are sensitive enough and know me well enough to be able to pick up on stuff like that. It's what I get when I feel awkward around people as well. When you don't want to seem too quiet you act really unnaturally, because you worry about what people think about you and becuase you want people to like you.
I need therapy.
I also need to stop waiting for things to happen and start making things happen. Tommorrow I am officially not allowed to feel broken any more and I have to get on with my life and start living it instead of watching it pass me by. I think a good sleep would be an ideal precursor to this. And a gingerbreadman of course

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[30 Jul 2003|12:49am]
I'm really tempted just to post Gong Li lyrics again.
Plz just read below.
I can't watch Blade. It's too sad for really personal reasons. Thank god nobodys died in my life, I don't think I'd be able to cope. And don't mention closure. I'll never have closure.

Some people say you played me,
I don't care if it's true, I'm waiting here for you,
Some people say you made it,
I'm not afraid to know, when things are getting low
Some people say you hate me,
I don't believe it's true, things that you're going through
Some people say you hate me,
I don't believe it's you, things that you're going through
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I rock [30 Jul 2003|12:38am]

Which Grunge Band Are You?
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Red Hot love [28 Jul 2003|10:23pm]
[ mood | content ]

This is officially my new favourite Red Hot Chili Peppers song and I urge everyone who hasn't got it to download it, I've been playing it over and over again obsessively and I can't get it out of my head!
I was walking
through a courtyard
without shoes and
without regard
automatic catacombs
take me where I wanna go

All around
all in faces
it astounds
and amazes
good to last innatural
touch me on my chromosome

What time
Fascinated by the face of time
What time
I got it to give and now we're gonna make some time

Ultra-fine and altruistic
can I spy into the mystic
system down for infiltration
open mind free of frustration

I was driving
to a safe place
and arriving
as I retraced

Yell into a telescope
aim it at the star of hope

What time
Fascinated by the face of time
What time
I got it to give and now we're gonna make some time

All over the young girl
the smell of blood and thunder
I'm connected by the lightning rod
giving into the beauty and
heaven knows how well I know you

Ultra-fine and altruistic
can I spy into the mystic
system down for infiltration
open mind free of frustration

All around
all in faces
it astounds
and amazes
good to last innatural
touch me on my chromosome

What time
Fascinated by the face of time
What time
I got it to give and now we're gonna make some time

All over the young girl
the smell of blood and thunder
I'm connected by the lightning rod
giving into the beauty too and
heaven knows how well I know you

Time. . .


Red Hot Chili Peppers - Time

RHCP B-sides are sooo good. Gong Li is just sooo good as well so I'm going to post the lyrics to that as well. Can't get enough of either song at the moment. It never ceases to amaze me how much great music there is out there waiting to touch you. I love music just because some songs have this amazing power to touch your soul and connect with your spirit in a way people never seem to be able to. As if at that moment the music is totally intune with your spirit. Phenonmenal idea that our spirits have their own sound waves or something. It's so true though, must be like auras. And it's not just the words of the song that you connect to, but the whole song. Out of this world.

Some people say you hate me,
I don't believe it's true, things that you're going through
Some people say you hate me,
I don't believe it's you, things that you're going through,
Some people said a prayer for,
No one you want to live, the eyes that once were his
Some people said a prayer for,
The way you want to live, the eyes you want to give

Some people say you played me,
I don't care if it's true, I'm waiting here for you,
Some people say you made it,
I'm not afraid to know, when things are getting low
Some people say you hate me,
I don't believe it's true, things that you're going through
Some people say you hate me,
I don't believe it's you, things that you're going through


Red Hot Chili Peppers - Gong Li

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i rock [28 Jul 2003|12:37am]
Top Ten Reasons to Date A RUNNER

10. We like it long and hard.
9. We do it in the woods.
8. Distance runners do it more.
7. We know how to keep it up longer.
6. We're the fast girls your mom warned you about!
5. We go farther on the first day.
4. We always have a strong finish.
3. Pain is pleasure, baby!
2. We know that fast girls have better times.
1. The farther we go, the better our reputation gets. :-)
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